What’s your vice?

Everyone who knows me knows that I am a huge activist at maintaining good health.  I eat natural, organic foods, I try to exercise regularly, I avoid synthetic chemicals like the plague,  I hardly ever take any medicines or pharmaceuticals, and I detest sodas and shy away from sugary snacks.  But I have a dirty little secret.  I’m a smoker.

ARGH!  Yes, the secret is out.  It seems so hypocritical to condemn all these other addictions when I myself am a slave to the nicotine stick.  Sigh.  But the thing is, everyone has an addiction – everyone has a vice.  How you deal with the addiction is what makes you different from other addicts.  Sure, it’s not easy to quit smoking, or over eating, or tv watching, or drinking soda, or eating Krispy Kremes,  or whatever.  But what are you doing about it?

To be honest, I am not trying to quit right now.  I have quit before.  I went 9 months!  And then my brother died and, stressed out, I grabbed a cigarette.  Yep.  That was a total bum move and I really regret it.  But I cannot dwell on past mistakes.  I can only work on the present.  Right now, I am working on maintaining health and balance in other areas of my life, so that when I try to quit again, I am more likely to be successful.  I will not be a smoker forever.